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| i just want to say bye to everyone! life is complicated...
might have a new sn on xanga: luvnaspire.
aim: luvnaspire
email: luvnaspire@yahoo.com
i love you all, do well stay strong..
bye | | |
| i started my fucking period... god dammit. im a fat ass thats not in control... fuuuuck!
ate pudding and purged...
got 3 packs of cigs.. kools, camels, and marbs (LOVE)
 New diet: ~
Fasting until the 13th, thats 10 days. NO meat starting today, no more then 80 calories.
H: 5'3''
CW: 108/107
GW1: 104 lbs
GW2: 99 lbs by aug 13th
- anyone can join,
- im doing this to myself,
- please dont be fucked up like me!
MEMBERS:
- Sara
- luvndesire- adrie
 muah, love u sis!
- AnaRunner, Wendy
•I went out last night and didnt do alot,
relized i miss matt to fucking much... blah! •
~ Watching Girl Interupted, sipping tea~
that movie inspires me.. i see myself in so many of those girls, its very sad but i know what there going through. I love angelina in that movie, so fucking gourgous! | | |
| EDIT
Okay i have some news... my boyfriend cheated on me and were over... forever. sad but true. 9 months down the drain... FUCKER!
INTAKE:
B- 1/2 egg (purged): 40 cals
1 slice of white bread (purged): 70 cals
2 "awake" pills... (it MIGHT have calories so ima say): 50 cals
D- Spegetti with garlic bread: 500 cals
i took the pills to stay awake i need to go for a jog... FAT ASS FAT FAT FAT!
rented a movie: girl interupted... ima go watch it soon. AMOUR
Hey loves.
:::intake for yesturday:::
B- 2 eggs and 2 toast w/ butter: 310 calories
L- 5 chocolate chips: 50
D- 2 tocos w/ cheese: 400 calories
TOTAL: 760 calories
Yesturday was pretty boring, but i went to a game and had some fun, lots of fun!! haha jk.
TODAY: I'm going to take the boys to the Dollar store and Blockbuster to get some stuff.. SO ill brurn about 200 calories.. Its like 2 mile walk. Anyways, i will post tomarrow anything new.. I want to go soak up the sun again, i miss it :( I might go to the beach and layout now that i have a HOT swim suit, fuck ya! Love you all. --April | | |
| Aww thanks for the sweet comment, its the first picture i posted of me.. ahh! hee hee.
Well to update yall, i ate normal yesurday or binged to me... (i want to water world and had a kick ass time!) i consumed about 4000 calories and im dreading it.
CW: 110 lbs (maybe)
I feel like i gained weight, i know i have. Today im going to try and fast... well im going to try, i usually fail and binge but omg im soo much happier!!
You know how my parents found my journal (:AKA: ana) well i just got the guts to call my dad and talk to him and its like he doesnt even sounds mad, its crazy.. i dont think this is going to be so bad after all and i DONT have to keep eating now :) yay! and i wont gain alot of weight, fuck ya! ps. my mom doesnt know... (im so happy about that!)
Anyways im suppost to be fasting today, im still drinking coffee and tea this afternoon about to soak up the sun. I leave for home in 2 weeks.. dreading it but happy at the same time! The kids i have this morning and maybe this week, grr! dammit! I only have 1 cig left, people take mine and im pissed ahh! o well, fuck it i need more grr!
well miss you all and ill cooment to everyone. hope all is well for everyone else because im so happy!
happy=starving | | |
| hello lovelys... i went shopping and bought:
cute tommy hilfiger ($115) swim suit thats a XS
pair of 0 jeans from ($65) AF
XXS shirt from the ($55) ella moss
dont ask how i fit into small clothes as im a fat ass of 5'3'' and 107 lbs.. gross and just fucking descusting...
its 3:30 and im still awake. trying to feel the slight bit of warmth when its 70 degrees inside and im wearing 2 sweatshirts and have a heater running by me... im going to trying a sleep now. ill be going to water world tomarrow (sat) uhhh to swim, and burn calories. no eating all day i supose... ill bring drink soda and 0 calorie drink and my huge fiji water bottle. got to love water right..
ill comment and post tomarrow loves. im stepping outside to have a cigarette.
te a'ime- avril | | |
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